What does it mean?

Yesterday I didn't go see momma & Lorna. It's my "normal" day to go see her however I won't be going on Saturday morning so I wanted to "stretch" my visits a bit so it doesn't seem so long since she's seen me. I thought of her often during the day & wondered how she was. I tend to call her at night, after her dinner hour, just to visit & see how she's doing. I always hear the same thing ... "I'm here." It's the same thing I heard when she lived in her home so that's a good thing, I suppose.

Last night... well, last night was different. I thought of her at 5:15 pm. No, I couldn't call cause she'd be at dinner. Thought of her at 5:45 pm & no, I couldn't call cause she'd still be at dinner. And then... the weirdest thing happened.

I never thought of her again till about bedtime. When, all of a sudden, I realized.... I hadn't called her at all and now it was too late to call. Now I couldn't call. And then I was amazed at myself because... it's been almost three weeks since I've moved her & Lorna to Springfield & over 16 months since this turmoil began... and this is the VERY first time that I've actually NOT thought of my momma?

What does it mean?

I think it's a good thing. I think it means I'm settling in... and since momma didn't call me, perhaps she's settling in too.

It is definitely a weird thing. I told my daughter, Bekah, and she said that it's okay... she's fine. And I'm sure she is. She would have called me, right?

So now... I find myself shaking my head in bewilderment. I can't believe I actually had literally NO thoughts of momma for about 4 hours. How is that possible? How did that happen? I wasn't "doing" anything. I wasn't "busy" with anything.. I was just having a life. MY life.

Amazing, isn't it?