Journaling though I'm not in the mood....

... I'm told journaling helps you get through whatever is going on in your head... I'm not sure what is going on in between these ears of mine, but here goes... fingertips to keyboard... and we'll see what comes up.

Life is changing for me... I'm "shrinking" on the outside and my world is seemingly expanding on the inside... Not sure what quite is happening except the world is opening up again for me... perhaps my own self closed the world a few years ago... but now... well, it is knocking on my door and I can't seem to keep from opening it... nor do I really want to.

My mind is ever busy... Work, home, walk, bike ride, bed, work... and my self... my inner self... is changing... or perhaps not really changing but reverting back to the me I was years ago...

I'm more outgoing than I remember being for awhile.. and that... well, is outgoing as I have always (since early marriage, anyway) been very outgoing. I'm outspoken, which, as you know is not always a good thing... I'm more self confident... I'm self assured... I am loving who I am seeing in the mirror and who I am becoming... or perhaps I should say, who I am returning to.

I am being flirted with more often now... and that is strange... and yet exciting all at the same time. I think it is awfully nice to be appreciated and to be told you look great... you're sexy... and to see yourself in someone else's eyes... It's been a very, very long time...

Sigh. Almost 50 years old.. and finally finding me... ?