What's Wrong With Me?

.... and why am I in a funk and why can't I get my head back in the weight loss game?

I have no idea. Normally when I slide.... I jump back on the wagon and I'm fine. This time.. though I am eating the "right" things, I seem to be eating either more than I should... or not the proper amount of the right things. I just can't seem to get my head wrapped around it all...

And frankly I am terribly disappointed in myself. I'm disappointed that I have worked so hard and that currently I just seem to have a "whatever" attitude...

I am disappointed that though I get up every day and start over... I'm not in the game like I should be...

I am disappointed that I have worked so hard for 8 months and lately... well, I just don't seem to care.

Perhaps my head has finally won over my heart? I am not sure what is going on... I just don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired.

I'm tired of watching every bite I eat.

I'm tired of wondering if this is my 2nd or 3rd bottle of water...

I'm tired of wondering what I'm going to have for breakfast or lunch or dinner or snacks...

I'm tired of logging on and posting my food intake and scrolling down at the end of the day to see that for the 3rd or 4th day in a roll.. I've gone over my calorie intake.

I'm tired... of being so focused on this...

I'm just... plain tired.

I've tried to figure out what is wrong. I've started "fast track" over..... hasn't helped anything that I can tell....

I feel... disappointed in myself and totally confused ...

Maybe I'm just hormonal? Maybe I'm just totally stressed to the max?

Maybe... I shouldn't make excuses.... I just am not sure where to go from here... I feel lost.