Point 2 lbs lost... 47 total now...

... and a loss is a loss, right? So... I only lost .2 lbs. this week! Yikes... well, serves me right I suppose... as my momma always said... you have to pay the piper. BUT... a loss is a loss, right? AND it's not a gain... so that's a good thing! And I'm back on track AND I'm watching my food and water intake... AND I am determined to have 55 lbs. off BEFORE Labor day... I know I can do this!!

AND... With my body changing, my attitude is changing too... and people are noticing... I'm becoming the "old" me... you know... the one that used to take chances and play and have a good time no matter where I was... The outspoken one... the flamboyant one... The girl that people actually NOTICED... and liked to be around. The girl that USED to get attention... wow... it is strange, actually.

Strange for me... as I sort of buried that person several years ago... so for her to be re-emerging is rather strange... A good strange, I suppose... but still strange.

These new happenings are vaguely familiar but have been so few and far between that I have forgotten how to react and what you are "supposed" to do...I feel like a young girl all over again... treading water I've not tread before and going where... I am not sure... and yet, all of it is so vaguely familiar.

It's been so long... since this strong girl has been out of the cage that I am not sure what is going to happen once she is let free to be who she so desperately wants to be... again. And the really sad thing about all of this... is that I am the one that put her in that cage to begin with... I am the one that buried her so deep that she couldn't see daylight... and I am the one who is digging her out... piece by piece, ounce by ounce.. as pound by pound escapes from this body... she gains light.... Am I ready?